Dear Diary
Dear Diary,
I have been tasked with writing a blog post around the topic of inclusive pedagogy. This is a difficult task Diary. Diary, you have seen my thoughts on inclusive work and the things I try to do each week to include everyone in everything. From ensuring that every one’s voice is heard in staff meetings, to actively challenging students when they have not considered all perspectives in a particular incident. Diary, this is tiring, this is hard, and I sometimes wonder why I do this?
Yes Diary, that last sentence is my faithful friend, doubt and fear (DAF) talking. DAF is one of the most loyal friends I have Diary (but you are the most loyal Diary). See, unlike confidence and certainty, DAF will always be there, whenever I need them or not. DAF often present all the negativity about inclusive work and why we shouldn’t do it. DAF often tells me that the world doesn’t care about creating safe spaces, brave spaces, or any space where all students can be their authentic selves without having to hide any part of their identities. DAF also remind me that for every inclusive action I make, there are three more exclusive (and oppressive) actions being done by someone within a 3.14 mile radius of me. One time, DAF told me that solving racism is as easy as pie. Can you see why I don’t wary of DAF and their presence in my life? And do you know what the worst part about this Diary, this is not an exhaustive list! DAF are always reminding me about the difficulties of inclusive work and pedagogies. And yet, I persist.
I persist even when people assume me to be an expert on diversity because I happen to be the only minority in the room. Dismantling racism in education mentioned this idea and this resonated with me as I have had a similar experience. By no means am I an expert on diversity, but I am an educator that wants to create environments where we can all learn.
I persist even when students are experiencing or acting out micro-aggressions, without being aware of them. As difficult as it may be to a participant or observer of a participant, as much as I am able to, I will try to make it a teachable moment
I persist even when VT’s POC are not being honored. Unfortunately, there is no way to guarantee that students or the general public will adhere to these community guidelines. What I can do, when able, is to speak up when I have a platform
I persist because of the oppressive systems that plague our reality and that I am entrenched in
But most importantly, I persist, because I must. As a future professor, I must be held to higher standards of inclusive practice. I must be aware of the students I am teaching and the various life experiences they are living with. I must recognize that my identity, and I formulate it in the classroom, will affect how my students learn, and if they will learn. Just like my student’s identities are important, so is mine, and I need to be aware of that.
Diary, that is why I persist, even when DAF are nagging at me, I must persist. I must persist because as educators, we need to catch up with the students we teach. Students today are learning in a different environment with students from different backgrounds. Can I really be a future professor if I ignore the complex student identities in my classroom? And show any awareness, respect or recognition of that?
Diary, I have realized that teaching is hard. The way I teach might favor students of a different background than others. I might not realize this but it does. Some students will benefit from the way I speak. Some students will benefit from my values of respect and ideas on what a good student looks like. These have been influenced by the teachers and professors who taught me, and the various identities and cultures they showed me in the classroom. I can’t predict who will be in my classroom and how best to include everyone. What I can do, is be aware of my biases (because we all have them) and teach in a way that allows everyone to be successful.